The Incident at Ong’s Hat

Jill Hand

I was invited to come to Ong’s Hat by an innocuous-looking man in a grey suit who took me to lunch at the best steakhouse in Georgetown. The innocuous-looking man (who had personally engineered two coups in Latin America) warned me that Ong’s Hat was a dangerous place. I reminded him that I’d been in lots of dangerous places. That’s not bragging; it’s a fact.

“Not like this one,” he said. He ordered the prime rib from the waiter who had silently appeared at his elbow.

I said I’d have the filet mignon, medium rare.

“Get the fiddleheads. They’re only in season for a short time and I know how much you like them,” the innocuous-looking man urged.

This was one of his little games. There was seemingly no way he could have known that I have a fondness for the tender young fronds of the edible ferns that look like the scroll on the neck of a violin, but somehow he did. Maybe it was in my dossier, along with dozens of other seemingly inconsequential details about me, including the fact that my thumbs are double-jointed and that I’d once owned a hamster named Meatball.

I decided not to give him the satisfaction of asking him how he knew I like fiddleheads. Instead I asked him where Ong’s Hat was. He said it was in New Jersey, way down in the southern part of the state where there are towns with odd names like Bivalve and Ship Bottom. I said I’d go; it would probably be my last posting before I retired.

Anyone watching us, a pleasant-faced man in his late forties and a dignified, grey-haired woman perhaps a decade older, sedately enjoying a convivial meal together, might have taken us for coworkers at some government agency. In that they would have been correct. They wouldn’t have heard of the agency that we worked for (very few people have) and they would have been highly surprised to learn what kind of work goes on there.

The Outfit is what we call our agency, although it has another, boring-sounding name in the records of the Government Accounting Office, which lists us as being part of the Department of Agriculture, of all things. We kept our existence on the down low. Not more than two dozen people outside the Outfit know it exists. The current president is not one of them.

Much of our work fell under the description of what is loosely called “intelligence” but what you’d call espionage. I’d been with the Outfit for over three decades. In East Berlin I was known as Frederika Chamov. I worked in a tobacconist’s on Ernst Thalmann Platz, selling packs of Inka, Karo and Juwel cigarettes that practically flew off the shelves. (The East Germans were enthusiastic smokers, bless their oppressed little hearts.) I also did a little bit of this and a little bit of that for Uncle Sam while I was there and got shot in the back as a result. Twice.

In London I was known as Millicent Fenton. I worked in the Barbican Library and had a nice little flat above a stationer’s on Chiswell Street. Nobody shot me during my time there, although I did make two people permanently disappear. I spent time in other places where I had other names but now I go by Mamie Outwater, the name my parents gave me when I was born, way back in 1954.

Not many people who do what I did for as many years as I did it live to enjoy their sunset years. I planned to make Ong’s Hat my last stop before collecting my pension and retiring to my condominium in Puerto Rico.

What’s in Ong’s Hat? On the surface, not much. It’s located deep in the Pine Barrens, the heavily forested, largely uninhabited area that is the stomping grounds of the legendary Jersey Devil. There are a few ramshackle houses and a squalid little convenience store out on Route 72 where you can buy lottery tickets and the kind of food that you eat only if you’re desperate. The Donner party might have thought long and hard before consuming the shriveled, bright red hot dogs that were sold there.

Six different kinds of snakes make their homes in the vicinity, including the venomous timber rattler. There are black bears and a thriving population of wolf spiders. Those look a lot like tarantulas. If you shine a flashlight on a cluster of them at night, their eyes light up like eldritch candles.

There’s also a secret underground government base staffed by scientists who monitor the periodic strangeness that occurs in Ong’s Hat. Most of them were perfectly nice people, but as the innocuous-looking man in the grey suit pointed out, they were eggheads, and eggheads generally have no idea how to react when the shit hits the fan. They tend to stand there like statues, rooted in horror as all hell breaks loose around them. People like me know instinctively what to do when TSHTF. That’s why I was there, as a safeguard, just in case things suddenly went sideways.

On the day that things went sideways, I was working in the Ding Dong Deli, the wretched little convenience store on Route 72 that’s owned and operated by the Outfit. The Ding Dong is a horrible deli but it’s a good lookout post. If any strangers come into Ong’s Hat, the only paved road takes them right past our door. They either stop in to buy something or we send somebody to discretely follow them to make sure they don’t go poking their noses where they don’t belong.

I was restocking the air freshener display up by the checkout counter. The air fresheners we sold weren’t the kind that are shaped like little pine trees. We sold an off-brand called Scent-U-Al that were imprinted with the outline of a recumbent, well-endowed woman. The best you could say about them was that they were cheap and pungent.

“Smell this one,” I said to Kurt Grau, who was helping me.

“Disgusting,” said Kurt, taking a sniff and wrinkling his nose.

“It’s called Big Pimpin’,” I told him. I dug through the box and unearthed one called After Party. “This one smells even worse. Smell it,” I invited Kurt.

“No thank you. I do not wish to smell it,” he replied. Kurt has a heavy German accent and speaks in a slow, deliberate way reminiscent of Arnold Schwarzenegger in his role as the Terminator.

“These air fresheners all have names that sound like brands of heroin,” I said.

Kurt replied that he did not take heroin. “It is a bad drug. I drink the beer. I smoke the tobacco, but I do not take the drugs,” he rumbled.

I said that was very wise of him. If you’re thinking that Kurt sounds like he’s not the cleverest mouse in the maze, you’re wrong. Kurt is plenty smart. He’s been around Ong’s Hat longer than anyone, longer even than Bill Lightner, who was in charge of the team of scientists and had been there since 1994. Kurt has been at Ong’s Hat (in a manner of speaking) since 1778, when he was a Hessian soldier fighting in the Revolutionary War.

Kurt’s story of what happened to him one night in September of 1778 is weird, even for Ong’s Hat. He woke up in the tent that he shared with six other soldiers feeling an urgent need to urinate. He quietly crept outside so as not to disturb his sleeping comrades and walked a little way into the woods. The next thing he knew, he was stepping out of the woods, buttoning up his breeches, but everything had changed. The Hessian encampment was gone. There was nobody around, nobody that he could see, anyway. He stood there in shock, looking wildly around, trying to figure out what had happened.

“Uh-oh,” said Pierce Morrison, the young man who was seated in our underground base, watching the surveillance monitors. He thumbed the intercom and buzzed me where I was catching forty winks in the bunkroom in the back. “Mamie, get out here. We’ve got a visitor and you won’t believe what he’s wearing.”

I came out and leaned over Pierce’s shoulder to look at the monitor. The man in the clearing was turning around in circles, a confused expression on his big, broad face. He wore a pointy hat, a blue coat with some sort of military insignia on it, and white knee breeches. “He’s dressed like a Hessian,” I said, surprised. My father was a Revolutionary War enthusiast. He insisted on sharing his hobby with the rest of the family, relentlessly dragging us all over the Eastern Seaboard to look at battlegrounds and museums, where the most exciting item on display might be a rusted cannonball, or a dented pewter tankard.

Thanks to Dad, I knew a Hessian when I saw one.

I told Pierce I’d go out and talk to him. I went up the winding metal staircase, popped the hatch that led to the surface, and climbed out. I could see the man about thirty paces in front of me. I cleared my throat when I was about six feet behind him.

Guten Abend,” I said. “Wie geht es Ihnen?”

He spun around. “Es geht mir schlecht,” he said, looking absolutely miserable. (I’m not doing well.) “Please,” he said, “tell me please where am I? My name is Kurt Grau, fusilier of the Second Regiment, Ansbach-Bayreuth. I am lost, but I cannot see how that can be. I went a little way only into the forest to make water. Now my encampment is gone. My friends all are gone. What has happened?”

He was in for a rude awakening, poor guy. I told him to come with me and I’d explain. Down through the hatch we went. Kurt looked around in amazement. It was quite an extensive place there, underground. It had capacious rooms filled with computer monitors and surveillance equipment and scientific devices whose uses I didn’t remotely begin to understand. Kurt took in all the video screens and the banks of multi-colored flashing lights and Pierce, who was seated in a black leather Aeron desk chair drinking a Red Bull, and gasped.

Mein Gott!” he said.

Pierce pushed a rolling chair in his direction. He said, “Sit down, buddy.”

I told Kurt the truth, as far as I understood it. Science is not my forté and the science behind what went on at Ong’s Hat was completely incomprehensible to me. To put it simply, Ong’s Hat contains openings to other places, some of which are nowhere on earth. The scientists called them gates. The underground base was established to keep watch on these gates and to try and keep nasty things from slithering out by using the scientific equipment to slam the gates shut whenever one popped open. In a way, it was like the arcade game called Whac-A-Mole.

I told Kurt he’d inadvertently stepped through a sort of gate back in 1778, when he’d gone into the woods to pee. It led into the year 2012, where we were now. The gate had shut behind him, and unfortunately there would be no going back.

“This man and I work here,” I said, indicating Pierce, who smiled cheerfully at him. “His name is Pierce Morrison. My name is Mamie Outwater. We are among the guardians of this place.”

“So, I bet you want to know who won the war,” Pierce said chummily to Kurt in German.

Kurt morosely replied that he didn’t care. He was still taking in the fact that all his friends and family were dead and had been for two centuries.

“The British lost. That’s good news, right? You guys didn’t like them much, did you?” Pierce said.

No, Kurt said, he didn’t like the British. They were smug and bossy. “What is to become of me?” he wailed, completely shaken up. Pierce gave him a granola bar and a bottled water and told him not to worry.

A couple of guys from McGuire Air Force Base in Lakehurst came and got him, accompanied by a guy from the Outfit named Sanjay Patel. Sanjay and I were old friends. Kurt was taken to Langley Air Force Base down in Virginia and given a thorough physical and psychological going-over.

“Do you think they’ll let us keep him?” Pierce asked hopefully while we were awaiting word of what was to be done with him. I told him Kurt wasn’t a puppy. He said he knew that. He just felt sorry for him. He was all alone in the world and he seemed like a nice guy. Besides, we could use some extra help at the convenience store.

Bill Lightner made some calls and Kurt was released into our custody. Pierce was there when he was returned, and he asked him how he liked the twenty-first century.

“It is interesting,” Kurt said gravely. “I have ridden in the airplane and the automobile. I have eaten the Big Mac.”

That was two years before the day in the Ding Dong Deli when we were restocking the air fresheners and the man and woman came in complaining that a unicorn had run across the road in front of their car.

They wore expensive-looking hiking gear and took in their surroundings in distaste. That was the usual reaction of people who entered the deli for the first time. Millions of your tax dollars were spent on making it look and smell revolting. The idea was that visitors would be so put off by the Ding Dong that they’d leave Ong’s Hat and never return.

The Ding Dong smelled pretty bad. It’s hard to describe the smell, other than to say that it was like rancid grease with undertones of cat urine and cheap, lilac-scented perfume. This horrible odor was cooked up by chemists at International Flavors & Fragrances in Monmouth County and dispensed through a sophisticated ventilation system. It was a smell that lingered in my clothes and hair, but such were the sacrifices I had to make in the line of duty.

The overhead fluorescent lights had been adjusted so that they buzzed and sputtered fitfully, while the red and green linoleum tile floor was purposely sticky underfoot. The tiles were worn away in places, giving coy glimpses of the stained and pitted concrete subfloor. Fly strips laden with flies swung dispiritedly overhead. As the man and woman looked around, frowning, the coffee maker gurgled like a dying man before grudgingly spitting out a thin stream of foul-tasting brew that no one ever tried twice.

Kurt swung into action upon the arrival of the newcomers. “If you want to use the toilet, you cannot. It is broken,” he growled menacingly.

I neglected to describe Kurt’s appearance, which was deliberately off-putting. He’s big, six-four or six-five, and that day he was dressed in a black leather vest and camouflage pants. He had a way of drawing his brows down over his pale blue eyes and steadily regarding the object of his annoyance from under them that tended to make people uneasy. Various tattoos of flames and skulls and what might be either a surfer’s cross or some kind of skinhead symbol completed the picture that said this was a person who should be avoided at all costs.

I didn’t look much more appealing. My hair was a wild nest of grey roots and purple ends and I wore a tee-shirt with sparkly lettering that proclaimed me to be the world’s sexiest grandma.

I could see the visitors were thinking Oh, my God! They’re Pineys! Pineys are New Jersey’s version of hillbillies.

I told them, “If you need to use the toilet, you can go out back and use the Port-O-John behind the dumpster. Just look out for bears. A bear almost got Kurt, here.”

“That is right,” Kurt solemnly agreed. “A bear almost got me.

“Jesus Christ,” said the man. “Bears, unicorns. This place is crazy.”

“Yes,” the woman confirmed. “We almost hit a unicorn just now.”

Kurt and I looked at each other.

I asked, “Was it a big unicorn?”

The woman grimaced and rubbed her temples. “It was pretty big,” she said.

The man drew a trembling hand across his sweating forehead and said he didn’t feel well. In a gentler tone, Kurt said they should probably turn around and go home. “Okay,” the man said dazedly. “Come on, Lisa. Let’s head back.”

Kurt followed them outside and took note of their license plate number as they pulled out of the parking lot and headed back up Route 72, away from Ong’s Hat. We found out later that they were Michael Cormier and Lisa Cormier Hallenbeck, fraternal twins and avid bird watchers. Michael lived in East Brunswick and Lisa lived in Princeton Junction. They’d come down to the Pine Barrens to do some bird watching and had unwittingly stepped into the pocket of weirdness that surrounds Ong’s Hat. Some people register the weirdness as a mild sense of unease or not-quite-rightness. Others — and these are far more rare — are like Michael and Lisa in that they experience visual hallucinations.

It wasn’t a unicorn that ran in front of their car but an ordinary whitetail deer. Something special about the twins made them see the deer as a unicorn. What was disturbing was the fact that they didn’t appear to find anything unusual about encountering a mythological beast running around loose in New Jersey.

Remember how I mentioned the Jersey Devil earlier? Lots of people have reported seeing it over the centuries. It supposedly stands about three or four feet tall and has a head like a horse, a body like a kangaroo, cloven hooves on its hind legs and bat-like wings. During one week in January 1909, dozens of people reported seeing it flying over their homes or perched on rooftops.

The thing is, the Jersey Devil doesn’t exist. Animals with fur and hooves are mammals and with the exception of bats, mammals can’t fly. Its wings would be too small for a creature that size to fly, unless the creature is a bird, and that’s exactly what it was. What people were seeing were just birds, probably sandhill cranes. They saw an impossible animal because something emanating from Ong’s Hat made them see it, something malign.

What events took place following the Jersey Devil sightings of 1909? Some very disturbing ones, including the murder of the entire congregation of the Leeds Point Baptist Church by the church’s pastor, who served his flock cookies laced with rat poison. Then there was the matron at an orphanage in Burlington County who smothered six of her young charges with a pillow and dozens of stabbings, shootings and acts of arson. None of the people who committed these acts had ever done anything criminal before.

In the years that followed, sightings of the impossible animal in and around the Pine Barrens often portended disaster. And now two people claimed to have seen another impossible animal, this time a unicorn.

I needed to get back to the base and see what was going on. I had an awful feeling that the scientists were monkeying around with those gates that I mentioned earlier and that something bad was about to happen as a result. “Come on,” I told Kurt. We locked up the store, got into Kurt’s truck and drove as far as we could before the crumbling paved road gave out. We walked the rest of the way, Kurt taking long strides and me hurrying to keep up.

I popped the hatch that led to the underground base using a device that looks like a garage door opener. What we found down there ratcheted up the alarm I was feeling to a whole new level. All the scientific instruments that had lights on them were frantically blinking. A group of Bill Lightner’s underlings were standing around, looking puzzled. Bill wasn’t there. He was at a conference in Chicago, leaving a guy named Bob Robertson in charge. Bob was a scientist with a Ph.D. in something or other, but he was primarily a bureaucrat. I hate bureaucrats for the reason that they’re stubbornly unwilling to do anything until the proper forms have been filled out and then passed on to the proper authority for review. Taking quick action was not in Robertson’s nature, which was too bad, because it looked like quick action was exactly what was called for before all hell broke loose.

Bob had chosen to react to the flashing lights by phoning one of the IT people and asking him to come and take a look. The IT guy, he informed me, would be there in about an hour, after he picked his kids up from soccer practice. Bob had a Sudoku puzzle book open on his lap when he said this. I resisted the impulse to hit him over the head with it.

Instead I told him, “Something’s happening. You need to close the gate.”

“I don’t think so,” he said mildly. “It’s just a glitch in the system. Nothing to get excited about.”

That’s when I felt the ground shake. A photograph of a red-haired woman hugging a golden retriever on Bob’s workstation fell over with a clatter.

“Something’s coming. Close the damn gate,” I shouted.

Bob just sat there, fiddling with his Sudoku book.

Kurt resolved the situation by pulling a Beretta compact semiautomatic from the pocket of his camo pants and holding to Bob’s temple. “Close the gate, Herr Doktor,” he ordered. “Do it now.”

Bob leaned over and punched in a code on his keyboard. He grumbled, “This is very unorthodox. There’s nothing wrong. It was only an earth tremor.”

Shooting me a look of intense dislike, he said prissily, “Weeks of work just went down the drain. I’m going to report you for this, you know.”

That was two years ago. Bob did indeed report Kurt and me, although nothing came of it, seeing as how we’d prevented whatever was trying to get out from destroying New Jersey, or at least a good chunk of it. I retired to my condo in Puerto Rico, where I pass the time writing spy thrillers.

My old friend from the Outfit, Sanjay Patel, sent me an envelope recently containing something he found at a garage sale while vacationing with his family in Weston, Vermont. It’s a bumper sticker from the 2012 presidential election in which Hillary Clinton ran for re-election. Her campaign slogan was Let’s Do It Again! Of course she never did it in the first place, not in this version of our world, anyway.

Sometimes when a gate opens in Ong’s Hat, things slip into our world from other versions of reality. They’re usually not physical objects, like the bumper sticker. Sometimes the things that slip in are memories that feel as if they happened but never did, not in this version of our world, at least. The Talking Heads sing about this particular feeling of bewilderment. “How did I get here?” they ask.

That’s a good question. Sometimes, when a gate opens or shuts in Ong’s Hat, reality shifts to a version of our world that is similar to the one we knew before, but not quite the same. If you’ve ever looked at your daughter Madison across the breakfast table and thought, “That’s funny. For a moment there, I could have sworn her name was Mason, and that her eyes were green, not brown,” that’s probably because a gate opened or shut in Ong’s Hat.

If you’re driving to work in your Komodo hatchback, the thought might cross your mind that your car is called a Kia. Then you realize that’s ridiculous. There is no automobile manufacturer by that name.

Here’s what happened to me last week. I was seated at an outdoor café, watching a cruise ship send launches bearing cargoes of sunburned, rum-soaked merrymakers into the harbor. I fell into a conversation with a woman at a nearby table. She said she’d gone on a cruise when she was a little girl with her parents and her grandmother. Her grandmother recalled her father taking her to see the Titanic dock in New York. “Of course that’s impossible,” the woman said. “The Titanic hit an iceberg and sank, but she insisted she was there when it came in. That’s funny, isn’t it?”

I agreed that it was.

JILL HAND lives in New Jersey, where she is a real housewife. She is a former newspaper reporter and editor whose work has appeared in Aphelion, Bewildering Stories, Flash Fiction Magazine, The Oddville Press, and Weird N.J.

Wall

Nikolaj Volgushev

Jerry is building a wall. He tells me, ‘I’m building a wall.’

I don’t really understand.

‘But Jerry,’ I say. ‘Jerry, we are software engineers. How come you are building a wall? How do you even find the time?’

Jerry sharpens a pencil. He is uncomfortable. ‘Well, I’m building it in my sleep,’ he admits eventually, after the pencil is so sharp you could drive it right through a telephone book.

‘So you’re sleepbuilding a wall?’ I clarify. ‘That’s interesting. Did you know I have a cousin who sleepwalks?’

Jerry snaps the pencil in half. He is upset. ‘No. It’s not like that. I’m not sleepbuilding a wall. I’m building a wall in my dreams.’

‘Ah,’ I say. I still don’t really understand. I think about my cousin Bill. He sleepwalked right out of a window once. What a hoot.

Jerry puts down the two halves of the pencil. He feels the need to explain.

‘Every night, I go to bed and I fall asleep and dream that I’m building a wall.’

‘Ah!’ I say. Now I understand. ‘Dreams are weird, aren’t they? I dreamt the other day I was an otter.’

Jerry sharpens another pencil.

‘This is different. I keep dreaming about the wall, night after night. For over a week now. I’ve been building this damn wall for over a week now.’

‘Ah,’ I say. I’m intrigued.

‘Well, are you making progress?’ I venture.

Jerry nods, testing the sharpness of the pencil with his fingertip. ‘Yes, it’s going all right.’

Jerry puts the pencil aside. ‘The problem is, I have back pains and blisters now. From building the wall, you know?’

Jerry shows me his hands. They’re raw and red and shaky.

‘Yowza!’ I exclaim.

‘Yeah . . . It’s hard work,’ Jerry says and produces a phone book from a drawer. He picks it up and drives the pencil and the sharp half of the broken pencil right through. Jerry gets that way sometimes.

I feel like I should cheer him up.

‘Hey, Jerry,’ I say. ‘Do you want to explain to me again what a subroutine is? A motherboard? Encapsulation?’

That does the trick.

Jerry doesn’t come into work for a whole week. Sick days. The team is falling behind on the project. There are bug reports. All unit tests are failing. I smack a ruler on the table. No one listens.

‘Where is Jerry?’ a man wearing a red tie demands to know.

I don’t like his tone. ‘Jerry is building a wall,’ I tell him. ‘Jerry is building the wall of his dreams.’

The man turns the color of his tie. ‘Have some grace,’ he tells me. I turn back to my computer. Gosh darn. Another bug report.

I meet Jerry for lunch. He is a different man now, not the Jerry from two weeks ago. His eyes are like wells, his hands are calloused, his movements sparse. His mere presence inspires awe.

‘How are you, Jerry?’ I ask, ordering clams.

Jerry orders a shrimp dish, a salmon dish, a lobster dish, a tuna dish, a squid dish, also mussels. Jerry is insatiable.

‘Are you still building the wall?’ I dare to ask.

Jerry swallows the lobster whole. He crunches on the shell.

‘Well, what kind of wall is it? Are you using mortar and brick? Is it a cement wall? Are you wearing a hardhat? What is the purpose of the wall? Is the purpose of the wall to keep people in, or to keep people out? Is it merely decorative? Are you reconstructing the Berlin Wall as a social commentary? Do you stand upon the wall and look out into the sunrise at the end of the night? Will quality assurance need to stay up for days testing your wall once you’re done building it?’

Jerry takes a swig of wine and wipes his mouth with the back of his enormous, calloused hand.

‘Jerry, you must understand, these aren’t just my questions. People around the office are curious, you see? They feel strongly that they have a right to know.’

I produce a legal pad with a list of questions I was asked to ask Jerry during lunch.

Jerry takes the pad from me and answers them all.

His answers are satisfactory.

‘Thank you, Jerry. I appreciate you taking the time.’

Jerry finishes the mussels, leaving six clean plates on the table. He leans back into his chair and unbuckles his belt.

‘One more thing I would like to know, if it’s no trouble . . .’ I try my luck, ‘What is it like building the wall? Would you say it is a hardship? Do you scream out at night — Good God, I never asked for this — or is it more of a blessing, a liberation of the soul, are you filled with the overwhelming joy of creation?’

Jerry doesn’t answer. He just sheds one gigantic, salty tear. It rolls down his cheek and lands on the floor noisily.

‘Hey, Jerry,’ I say in an attempt to undo the damage I have done. ‘Do you want to explain to me again what a call stack is? RAM? Polymorphism?’

Jerry does.

The next morning I get a call from Jerry’s wife. She tells me Jerry won’t wake up any more. She tells me she has assembled all the alarms around the house and that they’re going off (she isn’t lying, I can hear them in the background), that she has tried splashing Jerry with water, and punching him in the face, and whispering to him softly.

‘Well, is he breathing?’ I demand.

‘He is snoring.’ (Again, this is the truth, I can hear his giant breath over the sound of the alarms.)

‘I will be right there,’ I assure her, get in the car, and run a million red lights.

We’re all gathered around Jerry’s bed. His wife is holding his hand in both of hers (it’s so enormous, it won’t fit otherwise). The window is open; there is a fresh alpine breeze. Some of the alarms are still going off periodically because with some clocks the mechanism of turning the alarm off is an enigma, even to us software engineers. Jerry is breathing heavily, making the room shake.

Pedro, the janitor, walks in. He apologizes for being late and takes a seat next to the ladies from quality assurance.

Someone demands that we discuss the semantics of the wall Jerry is building. ‘I would like to know Jerry’s intentions in building this wall. I would like to know the deep childhood trauma which caused him to do so. I would like to have it affirmed that Jerry is building the wall symbolically, to solidify his deep isolation from reality. Can we all agree that Jerry is building the wall because he is lost, because he is fearful of death, because the universe is a fleeting, cold creature that is immeasurable and yet collapsing further and further onto itself every perceived moment of time?’

Jerry’s wife breaks into tears. We offer her tissues. ‘Now, now,’ we say. ‘There, there.’

‘What do you think will happen once he’s finished building the wall?’ someone ventures eventually. Jerry’s wife, just having calmed down, resumes sobbing again. We assure her that we didn’t mean it that way.

‘Surely he’ll wake up,’ I offer my opinion, though in my heart of hearts I am not convinced. In my heart of hearts there is fear and doubt and uncertainty.

Jerry sneezes, then turns over onto his side. His shadow covers us all; the temperature drops. Jerry’s wife returns with hot chocolate and blankets for everyone. We continue in our vigil.

These days, whenever I pass a wall I imagine that Jerry built it. Especially those stone walls trailing off into the forest, moss-covered and derelict, dysfunctional at first glance.

I wonder what the purpose of these walls is; I mean, look at them among the pines and shrubs and roots, what are these walls actually dividing?

‘All forgotten spaces,’ Jerry tells me from afar. ‘They’re dividing all forgotten spaces, don’t you feel it?’

I tell him that I do, but really I don’t. There’s a certain nostalgia to this kind of lie, a bright, childish disappointment.

Maybe one of these days I ought to build a wall myself, I think. Maybe.

Nikolaj Volgushev was born in Goettingen, Germany, in 1991. Volgushev works in the medium of short fiction with a focus on the magic realist and absurdist genres. He obtained his B.S. in Computer Science at the University of Connecticut in 2013 and currently resides in Boston, Massachusetts. He is pursuing his PhD in Cybersecurity at Boston University. Volgushev draws influence from writers such as Gabriel Garcia Marquez, Haruki Murakami, and Donald Barthelme as well as the strange realms of software development and formal logics.

Old Bill and the Zombie Stripper

Gary Moshimer

This was back in the day, of course, when there were still strip joints in the hills and video stores with X-rated VHS tapes. I was in the rental place, picking up a copy of Ghostbusters, when the old man tottered out of the “back room” with an armload of dirty tapes. You weren’t supposed to bring the boxes up front; you were supposed to bring the little tags. But he hadn’t heard. As he approached the checkout he could no longer handle his load; the boxes toppled and scattered, showing their lurid titles and cover photos to everyone, including some little kids. Mothers and fathers covered the kids’ faces. The girl at the checkout was cool. She calmly picked up the boxes and brought them behind the counter and addressed the old man as Bill. She reminded him about the tags, but Bill was smiling a crooked and perverted smile, oblivious to everything but his future pleasure. I had to smile. One of the titles was ZOMBIE STRIPPERS. I had something to offer old Bill.

I went outside the entrance and smoked and waited for Bill. He emerged with his bag of tapes, and I said, “Psssst, Bill.”

He stopped and we studied one another. In the sun his skin was transparent, showing his old green and purple veins. His eyes were colorless, as were his lips. He was still smiling, his brown teeth pointed and covered with something that resembled dried blood. “I know a place you’ll like,” I said. His hands shook. He probably couldn’t wait to get to his VCR. But he kept smiling and didn’t say a word. “If you like zombie strippers. It’s the real deal.” He made a grunting sound. I wondered if he was deaf. He worked his greenish tongue over those teeth. He pulled out the ZOMBIE STRIPPERS tape and showed it to me, nodding his head.

“Let me follow you home,” I said, moving my mouth slowly before those creepy eyes. “Then I can pick you up tonight and take you there. It’s an awesome place. Trust me.”

He put the tape back and held his hand out to me. It was freezing, as I expected. “Okay,” he said, his voice a gravelly whisper that gave me a chill. I walked with him; his house was just around the corner. He said he lived by himself, that he was lonely, the girls in the tapes were his company. Sometimes he fell in love, but there was something missing. I told him I’d pick him up at eight, and he held my hand again. This time he scraped my palm with a long, yellowish nail. My spine trembled.

He wore all black — pants and a tunic, black fedora. He smelled of cheap cologne disguising the odor of impending doom. He blinked those colorless eyes, and I noticed the tears. “My friend,” he said. “Thank you.”

“Bill, this will be something you won’t forget.”

I drove from the hollow up into the purple hills. The eerie sundown made Bill glow. I could see the blood pulsing at his neck, a slow beat. He smiled at me and nodded his head. He didn’t ask where we were going — he had total trust in me.

The place was at the top of a mountain, far past where the houses stopped. A few battered pick-ups sat in the parking lot. Not a lot of people knew of this place. I’d found it one night when I was driving around, trying to forget how my wife left with the appliance guy. The auto graveyard was next to the parking lot. Some of the dancers had died in car wrecks, and those cars were sitting out there. Some stayed in their cars during the day.

Bill trembled as we entered. It was totally dark except for the stage, where Mercedes was doing her thing. She was named for the car she perished in. Now she was peeling her burnt skin from her bones. Zombie strippers can do that. There were whistles from the good old boys in the dark. “These are the real zombie strippers, Bill.” Boy how he shook. He took my hand and I led him to a table up front. There was usually a vacant zone because of the smell. Bill didn’t mind the smell; he said it reminded him of when he was young — gasoline and burnt rubber. He didn’t mention the burnt flesh. He said he could love a woman like that.

Mercedes shook her bare bones. They rattled. She removed her blonde hair like a wig and swung it around, her naked skull grinning. Bill clapped and tried to whistle, but he was dry. I summoned the waitress, Molly, whose chubby arms molted skin as they took my order. I ordered us both a whiskey, and when it came we toasted and downed them, sputtering. Bill whistled. Mercedes was done and Angela took the stage. She spun on a stool, removing her legs and then her arms in a sexy way. She rolled on the stage and arched her back. She looked in pain but she smiled. The pain was short-lived when she was hit by the truck that severed her. Projected on a screen behind her was a picture of the tractor-trailer, and the men booed at first. Then they cheered, realizing that without the truck there would be no Angela the zombie. Then came Susanne, who had been murdered by her boyfriend with a big knife across her throat. She did a bump and grind while slowly removing her head and holding it by the black hair. All the strippers had died in terrible ways, and Bill was shedding tears of sorrow and joy.

“I want to help these poor girls,” he said.

“There’s no helping them, Bill. They’re dead. They stay in the junkyard when they’re not dancing.”

“I want to meet one, to hear her story. I want to meet Mercedes. Can that happen?”

Mercedes was sitting at the bar. She’d pulled her skin back on and freshened up a bit. I sat next to her and asked if she could do a favor for an old, appreciative man who didn’t just see her as skin and bones.

Her smile looked painful. How she had suffered in her crash, but not for long. I nodded towards Bill, and she said she’d be glad to tell her sad story to a man who cared. “He’s a lonely man,” I said.

“I can help him,” she said, her voice just empty puffs of air. I could smell the metal, the old blood, but also something sweet and innocent from her former life. “I’m done for the night. We can go to my car.”

I took Bill by the hand and we followed her into the moonlight, winding between all the cars until we came to hers, a late model Mercedes with the front end crushed. They climbed into the back seat like a couple of teens. Mercedes told him the story of her life — the abusive husband that caused her to drink and drive way too fast one too many times. Bill said he didn’t understand how such a beautiful woman couldn’t just break free from the bastard, and she said Bill was sweet. He laid his head on her shoulder. She kissed his head with her bluish lips that were sliding off her face, and Bill was in heaven.

“I want to stay here with you,” he told her.

“You have to be dead to get in here. Otherwise you’ll have to keep going back to your life. You have to eat. We have no food here.”

“Then come live with me,” Bill said. “I’ll take care of you. You won’t have to dance anymore. I’ll buy you new clothes, and make-up, and we can spend our days inside. Until I die, then we can come back here and live forever. “What do you say?”

So that’s how it happened. I would walk by Bill’s house at night and see them dancing. He had gotten her white dresses from Goodwill so she looked more angel than demon. I’d see him brushing her hair, but it was falling out. So he got her a wig. He rarely left the house, and she never did. He rented only normal movies now, so they could watch them and she’d feel like a real person again.

But then something terrible happened; Bill stepped in front of the number seven bus. You could say it was an accident, or you could know the truth like me. At the funeral I caught glimpses of Mercedes in the distance. She waved to me. She was happy. Bill would be with her now.

His house was auctioned, but I still looked in the windows for them. I drove to the junkyard. They were staying in the Mercedes now. She was working as a waitress, and Bill was a stay-in-car zombie. He showed me his special ability; he could pose his arms and legs in all possible contortions, thanks to the bus. They lived there happily. Over the years I visited, became old myself, and started looking for my own zombie girl.

Gary Moshimer has stories in Smokelong Quarterly, PANK, Monkeybicycle, Necessary Fiction, and many other places. He wishes to be a zombie.